Hello
Melody and welcome to Soul2Soul,
One
of the clear messages of this reading is that this relationship has
taught you much about YOU. You are turning inward in your awareness
and seeing the spiritual implications of this bond. There are meditative
practices or energy healing techniques such as Reiki you can do to
heal your past.
I
see that this has been a difficult marriage, one that has been more
for "public display" rather than true intimacy, both of
you having difficulties communicating your needs and desires to each
other, and perhaps ego conflicts or even violence may have played
a part.
But
there is also love here... not "in LOVE" but a love of souls
coming together to teach a very valuable lesson. It is through the
difficult relationships in life that our souls learn and grow the
most. Your challenge is in realizing the relationship serves no further
purpose and to be able to release each other with love, gratitude
and compassion. This is best done by feeling this within yourself
first... your own anger and resentment would only fuel more anger
and resentment, but love will fuel love.
So
much of our society believes divorce and separation are a horrible
thing, to be avoided at all cost... or a badge of failure and shame.
The truth is, people and souls grow apart, lessons are learned, karma
balanced and the relationship serves no further purpose and it's time
to go on to other lessons. Unfortunately, it's sometimes easier for
people to hang onto their guilt rather than allow themselves to receive
true love, and thus we martyr ourselves, perhaps for "appearances
sake", or to earn "Brownie points" in heaven, but then
you are not living in your truth... there is no joy. We
honor no one in our misery.
The
Divine light burns brightest within when we are joyful, whole and
free. This is very much about you freeing yourself from the negative
beliefs and to believe in the justice of your happiness... freeing
yourself to true joy and love. Also, see how the "masks coming
off" revealed to you your own woundedness and things within you
that were easier to push aside in the past.... know that this is a
great opportunity to heal.
You've
lost a sense of playfulness and innocence that you long for and can
regain once again, but your awareness and understanding is growing,
you're beginning to see that the bars and burdens are of your own
making and YOU have the key.
I
do feel that you will be breaking free from this. Know that you can
still maintain a relationship with your grandchildren. Honest communication,
compassion and love will smooth their transition, and you'll always
be their grandma, even if you're not David's wife... and remember,
even though you won't be his wife... you can still be his friend.
Our
main and most important lesson throughout all these cycles of life,
death and rebirth, is to come to know unconditional love and forgiveness....
most importantly, to love and forgive ourselves. Developing a sense
of gratitude for even those people that make our lives "a living
heck", is for YOU, just as forgiveness is ultimately for YOU.
Oftentimes the betrayal we experience from those we love is what ultimately
opens us up to inner awareness and healing. There really are no mistakes
in life.... only experiences.
So
in closing I would say to focus on your needs, desires and healing
now, know that you are worthy of having your needs met. Communicate
with honesty and without blame, try to see David on the soul level
when things get rough, or see him as the wounded 3-year old that we
all are inside, it is easier to come to a place of compassion when
we see each other in this way.
I
wish you clarity, peace and joy. Thank you for allowing me to read
for you, I hope this has helped.
Love
& light,
Soul2Harusami
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