Destiny Hides Beneath Fear
Truth: The way that you live is probably not your true destiny.
How would you live if you were fearless, if you lived your life as an
expression of your deepest heart?
As an act of unrestrained love, you might become a mother, a politician,
or a writer. Perhaps you would invent a vaccine, create a business,
or perform music. You might become a farmer, a teacher, or an attorney.
Love moves each person in a different way.
The way love moves you is your true destiny. When you don't add fear
to love's force, your life unfolds unimpeded. Each day is a flowering
of your deepest gifts. At work, with your family, and alone, each moment
springs open from the depths of your heart.
How can you allow your true destiny to unfold? In this moment, allow
your breath to be full, strong, and tender, as if pressing love from
your deep belly into the softness of your lover. Relax your muscles,
open your senses, and feel into the world around you, as if feeling
into the light of a dream, breathing this light in and out. From your
deep heart and soft belly, offer love outward in all directions as far
as you can open to feel. Your true destiny unfolds freely when you live
every moment open and shine as an offering of love.
However, if you add fear to your life--as most people do--then your
moments take the shape of your cringe. Anxiety about money clips the
artistry of your career. Fear of loss stifles honesty with your lover.
Your gut tenses because you don't really want to be where you are. Fear
is the opposite of love.
Few men or women live their true destiny. Most follow a trajectory bent
by fear. Your true destiny is lived by giving everything and loving
open without waiting.
If you wait to open fully, then your heart aches as your life curls
in the shape of your chosen consolations. Your bedtime snuggles and
TV rituals can assuage your pangs of unlived love for a while, but your
heart's pain of closure slowly accumulates to unbearable.
Sometimes a crisis exposes your heart fully open. Your business unexpectedly
fails. Your child becomes terminally ill. Stripped of what you most
cherish, you are left out in the open and unprotected.
One way or another, you come to face the truth: Everything you acquire
is eventually lost. Every body you hold eventually dies. You have been
waiting to give your deepest gifts, waiting to love without holding
back, while your life--everyone's life--passes. You have bartered your
true destiny for false comfort and muted agony.
You can stop waiting. When you are ready, you can intentionally breathe
open as the full truth: Love is who you are. This moment is as open
as you are willing to be. All your guarded moments are life wasted.
You can start opening fully now. If you feel fear, if you are waiting
for more security or comfort, if you are holding back your gifts or
closing down your love, then feel your act of closure fully. Feel the
tension in your muscles, the clenching of your jaw, the hardening around
your heart. Feel fear's shape, in your muscles, emotions, and life choices.
Feel the brightness of the moment constrained by your apprehension.
As you feel yourself doing the shape of fear, breathe more fully, in
and out.
As you inhale, expand your belly more fully, filling your deep gut with
love's light and energy. Then, as you exhale, offer love outward to
all, relaxing your muscles open, feeling out into the colors of the
world as you continue breathing. Feel others more deeply. Feel their
hearts' longing and joy as you breathe their aliveness in and out of
your heart. As if breathing the light of a dream, breathe the aliveness
of the entire moment in and out. Continue opening, feeling all, breathing
all, loving open, allowing your actions to unfold as your deepest offering.
When fear returns, which it probably will, feel the shape of your closure.
Feel your fear, feel everyone's fear and darkness. Inhale everyone's
fear deep into your open heart and exhale love's open light as an offering.
Relax and feel everyone so openly that you feel as everyone, as their
shape, as their fear, as their deep heart's love. As everyone, open
and breathe. As the shape of the entire moment, open and breathe. If
closure remains, feel, breathe, and open again, without end.
Your true destiny is lived by opening as love and offering your deepest
gifts, moment by moment. How you do this--as a mother of three children,
as a hermit in a cave, or as a political leader--is for you to discover
as each moment unfolds open as unimpeded love.
If you have opted for a life shaped by imagined security, you can feel
your true destiny in your heart, waiting to be lived, wanting to open
as the offering of your life. As you breathe open and offer your deepest
gifts of love, your life can flower afresh. As you slowly open your
heart's cringe, your business may show a new style. Your sexual depth
may open to your lover more fully. Anything can happen as your heart
unfurls and your moments open wide as love.
Your true destiny may seem far less predictable than the imitation you
have spent years holding in place. The choice is yours in every moment.
You can hold the shape of a consoling lifestyle for decades. It only
costs your life.
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